The First Party
As an adoptee, I don't have any family medical records so I don't know if I'm at greater risk for certain
conditions like alcoholism. I don't know if my biological uncle couldn't put down the bottle or if my
grandmother is an alcoholic. As far as I’m concerned, I am the beginning- the first mark of history.
The First Party is a series of nine self-portraits shot in black-and-white film. Instead of using traditional
methods of developing film where the developer solution is diluted with water, I diluted the developer
with beer. With each image, I portray the mixture of emotions that I feel as alcohol runs through my blood.
Each stain, each streak, each blurred moment realizes my damaged memory–an effect of alcohol and the
result of an uncharted boy.